Hard to hear His voice amongst all the others.

I’ve only recently started updating and I haven’t even been updating much but I felt it was time to do another one of those reflection posts. I’m trying to stay true to what this blog was intentionally set up for. Let God’s mercy and grace reign and pour.

College is a HUGE step and HUGE test for Christians. I know I keep talking about college but it’s attributed to the fact that I sometimes still can’t believe I’m a college student. This time however, I want to talk about how college is affecting my walk. College is a time that many discover who they are, people become the person they are going to be for the rest of their lives and it’s going to either make you or break you. College can easily change people for the better or the worse and it’s the time period where it is most common for a Christian to turn away and say “This whole God thing isn’t really for me”, and leave the church. I pray earnestly that I’m not one of them but to be honest, I can’t guarantee I won’t or at least put myself in a position where God is of minimal importance. I’m going to be completely honest in saying that I am never going to be or ever come remotely close to being the “perfect Christian”. I work hard my entire week, sometimes I want to have a little fun without asking WWJD. It seems selfish of me I know but I wouldn’t be being honest with myself or any of my friends by saying that I’ll be avoiding all temptations or even attempting to. However, schoolwork comes first, I say screw balance of work and play. I want to get my 3.8+, heck, I want that 4.0 to transfer out of here. Not because I don’t like Stony Brook or the people because like I’ve said before, it’s not nearly as bad as I thought but because I’m putting my future and career first and want to go somewhere I can really be driven and release my full potential. I feel like I’ve yet to be all I can be. At the same time, after I’m done with my work for the week, I want to kick back and enjoy life for what it is.

Partying and drinking, oh what huge temptations for a Christian college student. Definitely not a necessity of life, and obviously fun can be found elsewhere but I ask myself sometimes, why does it have to be? To be truthful, sometimes when I think WWJD, it’s more like like WWMCFT. “What would my church friends think?”, but this doesn’t make me a bad person. Talking to an older brother whose had his share of college and both sides of the spectrum, “it’s understandable to have fun and party occasionally as long as it doesn’t interfere with God, friends and school. The whole argument of how it’s going to draw you away from God, well I could say the same thing about almost anything somebody does, be it a sport, hobby, school, etc. All of those things could just as easily draw you away from God, it matters who you have to keep you accountable and watch over you and never let you step too far away. We have our twists and turns and ups and downs and I know I’ll fall every now and then, I just hope there’s going to be a brothers and sisters watching so I don’t fall too hard.

You might agree and I’m sure many of you may disagree and I completely understand where you’re coming from so I hope you can do the same for me. For those who are much stronger than I am in the sense that none of these temptations become a hindrance or a stumbling rock on your path, Amen to that and Hallelujah. Being honest with myself I don’t think I’m that strong and salute all those who are much stronger and ask that you keep me accountable. I’m far from perfect and I’ll probably be the cause to much of my stumbles, I may do some stupid things (hopefully nothing too stupid) but I still love my God.

40807, forever His. I know all of these earthly joys are temporary cause when all else fades, He’s still going to remain.

Discover myself in all this.

If this entry confused you, don’t worry cause I’m even more confused.

~ by letitreign on September 15, 2008.